Monday, April 6, 2009

Satisfaction

There is a song called satisfaction, it just popped up in my mind when I tried to search for a 'normal' title for this post. Not really one of my favourites, but it randomly turned up inside.

Anyways it might be a very nice title for this piece of writing, representing all the million thoughts running up and down my brain.

It is midnight over here when am righting the beginning of this post, so my brain is half dead, but still running on this point.

Since coming back from MENAXLDS in Egypt it feels like being in a new era of my life. No, I'm not meaning that the conference changed my life or anything like this, but it did accelarate a few things already in my mind and brought to light a lot of them, so that I could chew on them these recent weeks.

And why is the title? Coz I think the main point what changed is what are the things satisfying me, what are the things am looking for or appreciating in my life.
Many people told me I don't have a balanced life, basically having my work as life. And I did not mind it at that point in time....and I think that time it was the balance. Well, not any more. I want something more in my life then just work....I want the life part of the story as well :P I want something new, some new experience (not saying that my AIESECy life could not bring new every day, but still I need something different).

I have sooo many plans with my non existing free time, it is hard even to list it down. It just started with going to the gym as a normal activity, but extended to be the "it would be sooo nice to do" list which I don't even have the idea when I will be able to reach to the end of it, if that would ever happen (knowing myself this is not a threat that I reach the end of the list :D something new would anyways pop up before :D)

Hard to put it into words this new concept. But I do value more free time, I do value more an honest friendship or a good chat, a nice movie....and I do want something different from my life and my relations which is kind of hard to express (especially in written format).

I know this post ended up to be pretty philosophical and rather (unusually) fluffy from me, but I just thought it is better to write, better to share, that might move things forward....inshallah as here we would say :)

2 comments:

Maryann said...

Familiar thoughts, though...:)
But then... -just questions- why does satisfaction appear if you are longing for something different, deeper and newer? Or do you just say that this is the end of something and you are growing up? When can you fill up your soul with a good movie and a nice chat? Do you 'use' the proper people to give you the 'new' satisfaction? Why? Do they know this? Should they?
Another thing... passion. Where is it? Is it present in your life? Do you let it being expressed? How? Does it give the satisfaction? Is it expressed "properly"?
Balance... yeah things and priorities are always being changed with the flowing of time... totally understand and feel.
These are just random thought making my mind busy on a bus or before going to bed while writing a post onto my blog...
hugs

Unknown said...

just don't overcomplicate :) passion is there, you can love even small things in your life, the key is if you are looking for something :) Enjoy the journey, even with a goal in your mind....and then you will find satisfaction ;)